We are so sensitive to stimuli that it is easy to become overstimulated. As far as I can tell, it’s just too many signals firing in the brain. Thinking seems to make it worse.
I experience minor overstimulation like a horrible feeling of static that’s filling my brain and body. I’ve learned to recognize it and reduce stimuli, if possible, or stop thinking.
Fortunately, I don’t get badly overstimulated as an adult. When it is moderate, I tell everyone around me what’s happening and reduce stimulation even if it inconveniences people. I’ve also been known to borrow my son’s weighted blanket.
As a child, there are stories of me screaming wordlessly for hours. In retrospect, we’re pretty sure it was a meltdown. That’s what happens when the static takes over and becomes everything.
Painful Challenges: Noise, Textures, Anxiety, Fear
Damara Ortega shares some of her painful challenges as an autistic in a non-autistic society.
With regard to what she has experienced that non autistics typically don’t, she writes:
Confusion and almost pain when people speak while their car radio is on.
Headaches and anxiety at overly Christmas decorated stores.
Generalized sadness when you look around and at a group of people that think you are their friend, but you know that you ended up where you are through (poetically speaking) killing your childhood self, destroying both negative mannerisms and uniquely gifted possibilities at once.
The feeling of incertainty that after years of modification to become socially acceptable, you find that you could have spent becoming amazing at something. That now, you are like everybody else… sorta. And that’s not always a good thing.
The fear. That you’ve build this face that withstand aquaintance, but is exhausting and you know it won’t hold for long extensive periods. So you’re terrified to begin a relationship because you’re afraid that your partner would feel that they have been lied to, tricked.
Preferring foods based on texture rather than flavor.
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